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So I got home from Orlando last night around 10pm.  What a weekend!  I went up there for my best friend’s bachlorette weekend.  And on a sidenote, that’s also where I grew up so my parents still live there.

 So I’m halfway there when my mom calls me and tells me my dad is in the hospital.  He has an infection in the front part of his brain and his immune system shut down so he’s not reacting to any antibiotics.  Annywayyy, I told her I was on my way up there and I should stop by to visit.  Mom said no that dad needed to rest.  So I said ok, keep me updated and I’ll come by Sunday. 

 So, I told myself not to worry or get upset until there was a real reason to.  So, I went about the weekend.  And holy crap did we have a good time.  Spend Saturday laying out by the pool with all the girls and drinking girly drinks.  I did great with the eating…or should I say I really didn’t eat anything at all.  So we went to the bar later that night, had a friggin amazing time which of course called for a not so good day yesterday.   But, it was totally worth it.  I absolutely cannot wait for the wedding this weekend!!!  Oh and I get to see my boyfriend. 

I did end up calling my mom on Sunday to tell her I was on my way to her house and to wait for me before going to the hospital.  So we went for a few hours.  I could tell how much it meant to my dad that I stopped to visit.  So that made me happy.  But it sure did suck when Mom and I left.  It was sad leaving him there all by himself. 

Anyway, I stepped on the scale this morning and very happy with the results.  I’m down the 5lbs I was up last week and after all the drinking this weekend I’m definitely thrilled.  So back to kickboxing this week and healthy eating so I can do it all over again this weekend! 

Hope everyone had a great weekend!!!

Well, I will first start off by saying what a wonderful week!!  I have stayed within 1300-1400 cals everyday AND I worked out!  Sunday I went for a 40 min run.  Mon/Tues/Wed I went to kickboxing (1 hr class). 

Today during my lunch break I went to find a cute pair of black peep toe heels for my best friend’s bachlorette party.  I ended up finding a pair at a store that was closing for $9!!!  So $50 to $9.  I’ll take it.  And then I wandered into another store that was also closing and found a pair of $100 Asics on sale for $50 w/ an extra 50% off!  That’s $25 for a brand new pair of Asics!  Gosh I’m proud of my bargain shopping. 

 Well, I had every intention on going to kickboxing tonight but just wasn’t finding the motivation.  I wanted to go shopping again.  Shopping got boring, got home around 7pm, ate dinner, and sat at my computer reading blogs and chatting to my boyfriend on IM who kept saying over and over again “do it do it do it do” to me saying “I really want to go for a run but can’t find the motivation.”  Well, between blogs and my pestering boyfriend, I found that motivation and off I went!!  I ran for exactly 30 min which was 2.9 miles (I have a Garmin Forerunner that tells me so!)  So I’m so happy that I managed to do that.  And I definitely have to thank all of you for it also!!!  Yay for BLOGS!

 I’m also doing the National Women’s Challenge and completed my first week!!!

I’ve been stepping on the scale everyday and haven’t seen any change but hopefully it kicks in.  Anndddd it’s my best friend’s bachlorette party in Orlando this weekend and I’m honestly not going to keep myself from drinking but I will do my 100% best at picking good choices when it comes to food.  Wish me luck!

Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!!!

Oh Tuesday.  Today was a pretty darn good day.  Work was….well, I’ve been caught up which obviously is a good thing but can call for being bored at times.  But, I’d rather be bored than praying for more time in a work day.

And the eating part…just amazing.  I wrote down EVERYTHING and counted ALL calories.  Very proud of myself.  And I went to kickboxing.  Let’s just see if I can keep this a consistent thing!

My eats for today:

Breakfast: organic oatmeal, 1/2 banana….200 cal

Snack: 6 strawberries, 9 mini rice cakes….104 cal

Lunch: 1/2 pita, tuna, cucumber slices, yogurt, cooked spinach….285 cal

Snack: 1/2 banana….53 cal

Dinner: 1 tortilla, 2 scrambled eggs, 3 turkey sausage links, 1/4 cup cheese…..490 cal

Snack: cereal, 3 mini rice cakes….168 cal

TOTAL:  1300 cal! 

Probably should have eaten more veggies but oh well.  Tomorrow.  Still stayed at low calories.

 Hope everyone had a super fantastic day. 

I have just had no motivation whatsoever lately.  Today I was finally like, OK ENOUGH, time to actually do something.  But is the motivation there?  Not really.  My small amount of determination comes from frustrations of “i’ll just start again on Monday”.  I’m tired of feeling like that.  So it’s just come to exhaustion.  I’m done making excuses on my lack of weight loss…there is only one person that has the power to change that and that’s me.  I’m not going to just wake up and these extra pounds be gone…it’s going to take work and hopefully I’ve finally 184% come to that realization.

 So on that note….I have written down EVERY single thing I have eaten today as well as kept track of every bit of calories.  And as exhausted as I am right now, I am forcing myself to go to kickboxing. 

My eats for today:

Breakfast: organic oatmeal, fresh strawberries, 1 tsp flaxseed….216 cal

Snack: 9 mini rice cakes….60 cal

Lunch: Kashi frozen meal, 4 celery sticks….315 cal

Snack: sugar free hot chocolate, 9 mini rice cakes, 1/5 banana….173 cal.

Total…..764.  I have no idea what I am eating for dinner but believe it to be a Boca burger, spinach, and something else.

 I feel awful not having been around.  My best friend’s wedding is coming up so my weekends are pretty much gone.  Being a bridesmaid is oh so much fun. 

So I haven’t been around much the last three day and let me tell you….it sucks.  Not keeping track of all my food also really sucks.  I didn’t do horrible but there was some alcohol thrown in there which is what I told myself I was staying away from.  But wednesday I had a college friend in town and we met for dinner.  I haven’t seen him for 2 years!  It was so nice to catch up.  Thursday was a work outting after work and it was a Casino Cruise.  It was interesting.  I can’t believe that some people spend their lives gambling their money into nickle slots!  I spent a grand total of $3.  $2 on myself and $1 I gave to someone.  That was my first time in my entire life I have gambled (never even bought a lottery ticket!).  I’m happy to say I can’t get addicted! 

And yesterday….oh my.  I busted ass at work trying to get everything done.  I have been working so hard at getting everything in order before I applied for the Texas office.  Well, I stayed at work late for 2.5 hrs.  My team leader, my manager and another team leader in the office all stayed late to help me w/ my application.  It was so nice of them.  They know how important me moving to Texas is so they are willing to  help me in any way.  Needless to say…being that we all had a late night Thursday we were exhausted by the end of the day and my manager was like “OK, let’s go out for ONE drink”.  I said NO.  But she convinced me.  So of course one turns into two.  And then that turns into dinner at Bonefish Grille and a glass of wine.  But dinner was tasty and we had a blast. 

So anyway…it’s back to business today.  I have missed the blogs and the forums!  I hate being gone!  And I’m sorry to everyone and my ROCKSTAR team!! 

 Today will be catch up day!

It’s Sunday.  It’s Easter.  Guess what I have done all day?  Watch tv and clean.  It’s sad, I know.  I should have gone up to my parents house this weekend for Easter but when I called last week to see what the plans were they didn’t seem too concerned with me coming up so why waste my time and money for a trip that wouldn’t make a difference to them.  It really gets to me sometimes.  I pride myself so much on being an independent person…going 1000miles away to college 1 month after graduating highschool and never returning home except to visit.  I wanted to pursue my dreams and that I did.  But I think my parents have become so use to me being gone its like they don’t know how to miss me.  Whatever.  They could have at least called today. 

I’m done complaining.  Needless to say, I have done horrible this weekend on the eating thing.  Not so much on eating bad things, but just eating a lot.  So today every time I have wanted to snack I got up to do something.  I cleaned my apt.  It’s not spotless but I have cleaned things that haven’t been cleaned in awhile….e.g. my closet. 

So today it’s time to get back to it.  I felt fantastic last week by sticking to the healthy eating.  I’m gonna do it again this week :)  I have to partially thank our dear friend Debbie for the Write Your Eats Down!  Keeps me accountable…I’d like to think.

 So here is a to a new week!  I’m excited for it.  ANNDDD for all of those that know me you know I am in a long distance relationship…soooo BONUS to me this coming weekend is a trip to Texas!  :)  I could not be more excited.  Motivation….I eat well, I feel good about myself and I feel good around Brad. 

 Hope everyone had a fantastic weekend and a great holiday!  Debbie, hope you had a great trip to Vermont! 

It’s been a great deal of time my buddies since I have made a post.  I have been around though.  Still catching up on everyone’s blogs when I have a chance.  I have not fell off the wagon completely but I haven’t been doing as best as I can either.  I haven’t gained anything.  I’ve pretty much maintained.  But regardless, I’m back here again and determined to try even harder.  I’m hoping Debbie’s, “Write your Eats Down” will help as I like the idea. 

 I have exactly 1.5 months before my dress comes in for my best friend’s wedding.  And buddies, this isn’t the typical poofy bridesmaid dress we are talking about.  It’s slim.  And silk.  And really elegant.  How am I supposed to fit THIS body in THAT dress??  Oh dear. :-/

 Anyway, so here I am.  It’s hard for me to even say I CAN DO THIS.  Because how many times have I tried and failed?  I’m trying to take a different approach.  I’m not here to lose weight.  I’m here to feel better about myself which in turn helps me lose weight.  So we’ll see, eh? 

So it’s Monday.  The weekend is over.  Only 4 more days till the weekend! 

 So I weighed in at WW on Saturday.  One pound loss.  It wasn’t exactly what I was looking for but it’s better than a gain.  I didn’t do that well on Saturday and Sunday w/ my eating.  Not HORRIBLE but not entirely on plan either.  It happens right?  Anyway, I got back to it today and went to kickboxing.  So all is good!

So I have to go to the doctor tomorrow.  :(  I had to go last minute last week for some awesome female problems and now they want to do an ultra sound!  And when I hear that word I think baby!  And I don’t want any babies!  But, I’m okay.  I’m not having one.  I’ll leave the baby makin up to our dear friend Debbie!  (congrats yet once again!)  Anyway, I just pray that it’s not anything horrific. 

My lovely bf Brad is coming into town next Thursday.  Which means a few things…I won’t go to kickboxing on Friday b/c we already planned an evening gambling cruise.  Which means I’ll be drinking (I think I can hold out on the all you can buffet).  But the drinking is where I’ll have problems.  And then I’m supposed to weigh in on Saturday!  And then more drinking on Saturday.  And no kickboxing on Monday b/c I have to take him back to the airport.  How do we get through challenges like this??  At least I have a couple other recreational activities I can partake in!  hehe

My food for today:

• kix w/ 1/2 cup skim milk - 2 pts
• all natural applesauce 1/2 cup - 1 pt
• WW yogurt - 1 pt
• 2 servings baby carrots - 0 pts
• hot chocolate - 2 pts
• tuna w/ 1/2 tbsp light mayo and 4 slices melba toast - 3 pts
• 1 bag Pirates Booty - 1 pt
• peanuts - 3 pts
• Smart One tv dinner - 5 pts
• 2.5 oz baked chicken nuggests - 2 pts
• broccoli - 0 pts

Total = 20 pts and 2 left 

 (I like Debbie’s idea of the food journaling)

Happy Monday everyone.  :)  Hope you all had a good weekend!

So if any of you read Nikki’s blog she had mentioned that I did a 5k on Saturday.  And that I did.  I ran in the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure 5k.  I ran it last year as well.  I love running in 5ks.  Even though it’s only 3.2 miles it’s such a rush to cross the finish line.  My friend and I are doing another one in February but that one is a 6k which is 3.7 miles.  Eventually I’d like to get up to a 10k and then a half marathon and then who knows…maybe even a full marathon!  The sky is the limit.

I also weighed in at WW on Saturday after the race.  My weight was EXACTLY the same.  Can I blame it on the lovely TOM and the fact that I drank a lot of water before the race, during the race, and after the race–hence, before I weighed in?  At least I didn’t gain…that’s a plus.  I have also put away my damn scale and refuse to weigh myself until the official weigh in.

So yesterday and today I stayed exactly on plan and wrote EVERYTHING down and kept track of all points.  It’s been good.  Not too terribly hard.  Except tonight it’s only 7:45pm and I’ve used up all points which means no after dinner snack.  Oh well. Water is key.  :)  And reading my book.  Oh and if anyone has never used those zip lock steam bags might I HIGHLY suggest them.  They are so ridiculously convenient!  It’s great!  I buy the already cut up fresh veggies and throw them in the bag w/ some seasonings and in 2 minutes you have cooked veggies!  It’s amazing and so great for someone like me who doesn’t like to take a lot of time to cook!

So tomorrow our office is letting everyone leave at 3pm and we are all going to the South Florida Fair together.  I think it’s a great work outting and it’s gonna be fun!  I haven’t been to a fair in so long!  I have to tell myself not to get out of control w/ the eating though.  I figure I will allow myself one thing of delicious fair food.  Wish me luck on the self control.

On an entirely side note…I’m reading a book now called Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult.  She is just absolutely amazing and I’ve read almost all of her books.  If anyone has never read My Sister’s Keeper…READ IT!  And might I suggest Nineteen Minutes as well!  Reading is a way for me to occupy my mind w/ something else besides food.  I love it.

 Anyway…enough of my blabbering.  Have a great week! 

So I guess it’s been a pretty crappy day.  I didn’t get the job I wanted in Texas.  Which pretty much means…my boyfriend and I will be continuing to do long distance for who knows how long.  The hiring manager said she thinks I’m too new (I’ve only been out of training for 4 months) and I have yet to have a Performance Evaluation so she has nothing to base my skills on.  She stated she loved talking me (yada yada) and she wants me to apply again in a few months.  I’m trying to believe that everything happens for a reason.  The only reason I’m okay about this is because I’m still in an apt lease until the end of May so now I don’t have to worry about breaking it or finding someone to take it over.  Brad is being so ridiculously positive.  He told me that no matter what he loves me and if we have to do this longer than it’s what we have to do.  He says we made it this far, we can keep going.  And he’s right.  I won’t see him again until mid February though.  :(  He is going to take 2 days off though and come in on a Wednesday night (usually we only do weekend trips) and he’ll just hang out on the Thursday and Friday I have to work.  I won’t take it off because I don’t want to use the time off-he has plenty of it saved up.  He said it’s worth it to be able to see me when I get home from work.  He’s so sweet.  Gosh I love him.

Okay enough rambling.  So for the past 2 days I have been entirely OP as far as food is concerned.  And I went to kickboxing tonight.  :)  So yay!  It feels good.  It feels really good. 

 Hope everyone had a good day today. :)  It was Monday after all!